american's obsession with weight

do you ever wonder when
exactly America became
obsessed with being thin
& losing weight???
i find this to
be very interesting...
i'd also like to research
this some more. if you know
of any books or sites about
this subject let me know.

speaking of weight...
i lost 3.6 pounds
this week.

also, i said i would be
posting a new pic
of Mr.Kitty and Nike...
unfortunately i didn't
have my memory card in my
camera when i took a picture, so
i'll have to get another one.

the messy cook

i am the biggest
mess in the kitchen...
i {love} to cook, but
i can tear up a kitchen.
i also love Rachael Ray, but the meals
that she cooks in 30 minutes probably
takes me an hour or sometimes longer.
oh well, she's a pro.
here are a couple of pictures of the mess
i have created all by myself...


i am sad to say i did that...granted
some of those dishes were already there
before i started cooking tonight.
i do try to cook 2 meals at a time...
that way i will have something
for lunch and dinner for the week.
so...i guess i have to give myself
credit for that.

rantings

during hip hop class
tonight i got VERY
discouraged and frustrated. i had to fight
back the tears that threatened
to roll down my face. this is no big deal,
but i am wanting to pick all the
moves up real fast and be
able to bust them out right away.
TOTALLY UNREALISTIC...TOTALLY i know this.
i can't get this one certain
part that we have been working on since
i started this class. it makes me so
discouraged that i can't get it. i wanted
to cry...how silly is that? so then i
felt so bummed...had the typical thoughts
of why am i doing this?
then...i'm looking at all of us in the
big barfy mirror wall, and i am the largest
girl in the freakin class. i felt gross
and disgusting. i know i'm doing something
about it...finally, but it's going to take
time. i can't tell that i've lost 12 pounds
really...maybe in the way i feel (i breath better),
but NOT in my clothes or in my mirror. nothing really
can be said besides...keep it up, you can do it, etc.
i know and i will. however, i still feel yucky.
sorry this post is so negatroid.

I have now lost....

a total of 12 pounds!!!!
I lost 1.8 last week.

a new pic of Mr. Kitty
and Nike coming soon...

i'm a bad blogger

i did not
lose weight
this
week...
i did not
stay the
same
this
week...
i gained...
only .6, but
it's still a gain.
it happens...oh well.
disappointing, but not a
deal breaker...i say i win.
it's a process.
i will be an after
and I will stay an after.

tonight i am going to Vandy to
watch my dear friend Patti
belly dance. she has been
working hard for this
performance. she will
do great!

i finished the book i was
reading by Ted Dekker called Thr3e.
it was a great read...hard to put down.
i still think of the characters. the movie
is coming out in April...definately will have
to watch and compare.