i need a vacation...

i so badly need to get out of
this place for a while...
i long to visit my
hometown...see my friends
and family...enjoy the
simpleness of my
small town...

blah, blah, blah

last week was
such a yucky
week...at least
at work...i was
sooo ready for the
weekend. i felt all better when i left
the parking lot Friday afternoon.
unfortunantly the weekend is over
before you know it and it's back
to work. this week will be better...
with all the bday outings, deserts,
Easter and my weaknesses (mexican food, pizza
and ice cream) i have blown
my "lifestyle" change for the past week.
it's so easy to fall back into old habits...
i wonder how it's possible
to break them for good. it has
to be done.

things that make me {smile}

coffee
the smell of peppermint tea
fresh flowers...i love all the colors and shapes
pink stuff...not the pink frilly stuff...i especially like the solidness of pink. Like my pink pepper mill and pink coffee maker...


clouds...i love the shapes and the way they look with the sun setting
cooking...of course it does help having so much pink stuff in my kitchen.
returning to a good book you're
reading that you've had to put down for a while
scrapbooking and stamping...it can be so fulfilling and so much fun
among many other things...
these two make me smile too

so, what makes you smile?

american's obsession with weight

do you ever wonder when
exactly America became
obsessed with being thin
& losing weight???
i find this to
be very interesting...
i'd also like to research
this some more. if you know
of any books or sites about
this subject let me know.

speaking of weight...
i lost 3.6 pounds
this week.

also, i said i would be
posting a new pic
of Mr.Kitty and Nike...
unfortunately i didn't
have my memory card in my
camera when i took a picture, so
i'll have to get another one.

the messy cook

i am the biggest
mess in the kitchen...
i {love} to cook, but
i can tear up a kitchen.
i also love Rachael Ray, but the meals
that she cooks in 30 minutes probably
takes me an hour or sometimes longer.
oh well, she's a pro.
here are a couple of pictures of the mess
i have created all by myself...


i am sad to say i did that...granted
some of those dishes were already there
before i started cooking tonight.
i do try to cook 2 meals at a time...
that way i will have something
for lunch and dinner for the week.
so...i guess i have to give myself
credit for that.

rantings

during hip hop class
tonight i got VERY
discouraged and frustrated. i had to fight
back the tears that threatened
to roll down my face. this is no big deal,
but i am wanting to pick all the
moves up real fast and be
able to bust them out right away.
TOTALLY UNREALISTIC...TOTALLY i know this.
i can't get this one certain
part that we have been working on since
i started this class. it makes me so
discouraged that i can't get it. i wanted
to cry...how silly is that? so then i
felt so bummed...had the typical thoughts
of why am i doing this?
then...i'm looking at all of us in the
big barfy mirror wall, and i am the largest
girl in the freakin class. i felt gross
and disgusting. i know i'm doing something
about it...finally, but it's going to take
time. i can't tell that i've lost 12 pounds
really...maybe in the way i feel (i breath better),
but NOT in my clothes or in my mirror. nothing really
can be said besides...keep it up, you can do it, etc.
i know and i will. however, i still feel yucky.
sorry this post is so negatroid.

I have now lost....

a total of 12 pounds!!!!
I lost 1.8 last week.

a new pic of Mr. Kitty
and Nike coming soon...